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original photograph by  Ursula Madariaga

Cement like air coupled with a nervous energy to act- an aggressive antithesis of annoying proportions.

This is a busy week in astrology.  On March 20, 2019 we enter a Full Moon phase in the zodiac sign of Libra- coinciding the astrological new year or Spring Equinox in the northern hemisphere.   This moon is also a super moon, piggy-backing a Mercury Retrograde in Pisces. This mix mash of energy will push us forward to inevitable culminations- the messy way in some cases.

Libra is a sign about partnership ruled by Venus- the goddess of love. Venus also rules aesthetic and passion. Libra is a very relational sign and likes to communicate. Libra is very diplomatic, likes balance, and is great at seeing all points of view. Libra can also be indecisive and spiteful. Heightened sexual energy or a need to connect with other people will be a strong aspect to this moon. Connection to friendships, lovers, family, situations, and things will come into focus.  How can balance be brought to these partnerships? What relationships no longer bring balance? What do you need to separate from? What do you wish to align with?

Tribes of the American Indian called this moon the Worm Moon. Earthworms start appearing in the grass bringing in the sounds of spring tweeting. Northern American tribes called this the Full Crow Moon-when the crows began cawing in the tide of spring.

The Spring Equinox is the astrological new year. New beginnings. New growth. Seeds to be planted. Those are all the themes and archetypes of this period. The winter season has culminated so has a season of your life. Time to walk forward in a new direction. Who and what will join us on this path is a major part of this moon. What do you want to create?

So we have had three super moons this year.  A super moon is when the moon is at its closest point to earth. This moon is the closest thus far and will have a pink hue in some parts of the world.  Not only does the moon appear larger in the sky, it intensifies the energy of the moon.  Emotions are heightened. People may be impulsive, yet the air feels like pea soup thanks to Mercury in Retrograde.

Mercury is currently retrograding in Pisces. Mercury Retrograding in Pisces is a very uncomfortable place for Pisces. She is a dreamy, spiritual and emotional sign-prone to fantasy and illusion. Mercury is a sign much more about action, intellect, and also governs communication. Mercury pushes Pisces out of the fantasy- to get into the day to day reality.  Mercury Retro is generally known for miscommunications, travel mishaps, bad driving, botched expectations, malfunctions, sluggish movement and plans going awry. These mishaps can seem to cut to a deeper level happening in Pisces. It may seem like you are misunderstood or not able to communicate effectively.

So people aren’t communicating well, driving like maniacs, and everyone is horny. Let’s add a magnifying glass of a super moon- making it all seem like more than it seems.

Now, I’m not saying lock yourself in your house until 21st when the full moon energy will peak, but slow down.  Don’t color your hair. Don’t make any drastic changes on impulse. Wait a few days. Take your time in getting to where you’re going. Double check. Re-read. Pay attention. Listen to your intuition and check in with your emotions. Try not to take anything too seriously.

Working with this energy and paying attention to what it can bring up within us and around us is key to growing through any moon phase. In full moons, we are examining the fruit of our labor. The culmination of the seeds we have planted and where things need fine tuning- culmination with the super moon and Spring Equinox will seem more intense.  Libra and Venus energy will bring a focus on partnership pushing us to reach out for connection. Mercury in retrograde asks us to be conscious of our words, listen to our intuition, pay less attention to what is verbally said and not getting caught up in illusion.

 

 

 

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Burrough’s message, however aggressive, is raw and sincere. As a Codependent in recovery, I know the art of being too nice and keeping someone around just to have someone around.

As my healing has progressed, I have gained confidence and love of myself. Flippancy has become less and less prevalent.

Listen, If I commit to you, I’m all in. I’m invested. I want to see you reach your highest potential. I genuinely love you and want to see you at your happiest and healthiest. I cannot be this type of friend or partner to a large number of people.

Dating around has become difficult, because I can’t invest in getting to know and develop an emotional connection with more than a couple people- tops. At this point in my life, my energy is too precious for spaceholders or blaze.

-Maybe you’re so afraid of having no one, you keep friends that don’t really match your values. “Oh, I’ve known this person forever. We’ve had such good times together. They have been such a good friend to me.” Yet you keep someone in your energy that currently mistreats you.

-Maybe you placate people that you don’t like deep down to save face.

-Maybe you blindy agree to whatever people in your life do or want, irrelevant of your own needs or wants. You accept literally anything.

-Maybe you entertain a lover, because you like their attention. Yet, you don’t genuinely care for them. Maybe you know they care for you, but you give them breadcrumbs so you can have their attention whenever you’re feeling low or no fish are biting that you really want.

-Maybe you’re trying to make someone love you, who could not care less.

Love yourself more. The above is two faced. Its fake. How can you give what you really care about quality attention if you’re giving energy to what doesn’t?

Its okay to be selective. Have a curated life. Be confident enough to grab a hold of only what you really want and okay if it doesn’t grab back. Its also okay to say no or change your mind.

Fuck ambivalence.