Did I love myself more
Even though my heart pleaded no
I cant deny what I know
Like mind and body
Could have swallowed me whole
All the ingredients for greatness
I was at the tip of a diving board
No water would catch me
No matter how long
No matter what pressure
I placed on the watering hose
I can’t continue to reach for a hand
Or a heart that isn’t mine to hold
I deserve more.
original photograph by Ursula Madariaga
Cement like air coupled with a nervous energy to act- an aggressive antithesis of annoying proportions.
This is a busy week in astrology. On March 20, 2019 we enter a Full Moon phase in the zodiac sign of Libra- coinciding the astrological new year or Spring Equinox in the northern hemisphere. This moon is also a super moon, piggy-backing a Mercury Retrograde in Pisces. This mix mash of energy will push us forward to inevitable culminations- the messy way in some cases.
Libra is a sign about partnership ruled by Venus- the goddess of love. Venus also rules aesthetic and passion. Libra is a very relational sign and likes to communicate. Libra is very diplomatic, likes balance, and is great at seeing all points of view. Libra can also be indecisive and spiteful. Heightened sexual energy or a need to connect with other people will be a strong aspect to this moon. Connection to friendships, lovers, family, situations, and things will come into focus. How can balance be brought to these partnerships? What relationships no longer bring balance? What do you need to separate from? What do you wish to align with?
Tribes of the American Indian called this moon the Worm Moon. Earthworms start appearing in the grass bringing in the sounds of spring tweeting. Northern American tribes called this the Full Crow Moon-when the crows began cawing in the tide of spring.
The Spring Equinox is the astrological new year. New beginnings. New growth. Seeds to be planted. Those are all the themes and archetypes of this period. The winter season has culminated so has a season of your life. Time to walk forward in a new direction. Who and what will join us on this path is a major part of this moon. What do you want to create?
So we have had three super moons this year. A super moon is when the moon is at its closest point to earth. This moon is the closest thus far and will have a pink hue in some parts of the world. Not only does the moon appear larger in the sky, it intensifies the energy of the moon. Emotions are heightened. People may be impulsive, yet the air feels like pea soup thanks to Mercury in Retrograde.
Mercury is currently retrograding in Pisces. Mercury Retrograding in Pisces is a very uncomfortable place for Pisces. She is a dreamy, spiritual and emotional sign-prone to fantasy and illusion. Mercury is a sign much more about action, intellect, and also governs communication. Mercury pushes Pisces out of the fantasy- to get into the day to day reality. Mercury Retro is generally known for miscommunications, travel mishaps, bad driving, botched expectations, malfunctions, sluggish movement and plans going awry. These mishaps can seem to cut to a deeper level happening in Pisces. It may seem like you are misunderstood or not able to communicate effectively.
So people aren’t communicating well, driving like maniacs, and everyone is horny. Let’s add a magnifying glass of a super moon- making it all seem like more than it seems.
Now, I’m not saying lock yourself in your house until 21st when the full moon energy will peak, but slow down. Don’t color your hair. Don’t make any drastic changes on impulse. Wait a few days. Take your time in getting to where you’re going. Double check. Re-read. Pay attention. Listen to your intuition and check in with your emotions. Try not to take anything too seriously.
Working with this energy and paying attention to what it can bring up within us and around us is key to growing through any moon phase. In full moons, we are examining the fruit of our labor. The culmination of the seeds we have planted and where things need fine tuning- culmination with the super moon and Spring Equinox will seem more intense. Libra and Venus energy will bring a focus on partnership pushing us to reach out for connection. Mercury in retrograde asks us to be conscious of our words, listen to our intuition, pay less attention to what is verbally said and not getting caught up in illusion.
On March 6, 2019 we will enter a New Moon Phase in the zodiac sign of Pisces. This moon is going to be a new beginning on a deeper level- to bring in greater healing and understanding of ourselves and others. This moon is also coinciding a Mercury Retrograde and Uranus moving into the zodiac sign Taurus. These energies along with aspects to Neptune, Saturn, and Mars will bring in a deep sense of who we are and where our spiritual growth has brought us.
Pisces is a water sign ruled by Neptune. She is highly compassionate, sensitive, and often highly intuitive and spiritual. She is very giving and loyal-often sacrificing her own needs for those of others. Pisces loves to dream and tends to have a very optimistic point of view. However if un-evolved, Pisces can over-give, play the martyr, and be detached from reality.
In the Tarot, Pisces is represented by The Moon card of the major arcana. This card represents subconscious, illusion, and the messages our dreams are trying to tell us. An overarching theme to this new moon will be attention to the inner voice that is demanding to be heard. It is also about breaking down illusion and walking away from areas of life that we have become dillusioned. Pisces is also the last sign of the zodiac. Pisces season can signal final wrap-ups and endings. With all endings there are always beginnings.
What old stories keep bubbling up that cause destruction in your conscious awareness? What is it you need to let go of? What is it that you need to heal?
This moon will be conjunct to Neptune, which will also square Saturn. Neptune rules Pisces and is a planet about spiritual enlightenment and spiritual yearning. You may feel more in tune with the world around you and feel desire for more. A deeper understanding of yourself and where we hide our deepest shame and disappointment may come to the surface as well.
The square to Saturn will feel like a bit of conflicting energy to Neptune and Pisces. Saturn energy is somewhat opposite of the dreamy spiritual focus of Neptune-he is all about practical matters and physical reality. This aspect will push us to look deeper and question what is beyond the daily grind of life. We may find areas of our lives where we are bored and needing to be revitalized.
There will also be an aspect to Mars pushing us to take action on these areas to make needed changes. Mars can be aggressive and assertive, but Pisces and Neptune will add some love and calm to this harsh energy. It will guide and facilitate Mars in a compassionate way- giving you the courage to take a leap of faith-say what needs to be said, and let go of hurtful and toxic cycles without judgment and blaming.
Uranus will be moving into Taurus during this New Moon phase. Uranus was in Taurus for a brief period in 2018 before retrograding into Aries, but will be in Taurus until 2025 beginning around this new moon. Uranus is a planet of revolution, break-ups and shake ups. In Uranus’ brief visit in Taurus last year, the world began to explore alternative currencies such as crypto currency. When Uranus was last in Taurus, the world experienced the Great Depression and the beginning of World War II. Despite, the strife incurred in that period of history, it forced world governments to enact ground breaking legislation and infrastructure to aid flailing economies and poverty. Remember the New Deal?
Mercury Retrograde is a famous astrological event causing disruptions in communication, technology, and relationships that happens multiple times a year. This new moon also coincides the beginning of this retrograde season. Mercury in retro forces us to slow down and pay attention to intuition, which is what Pisces is all about. Areas of miscommunication and conflict may arise around areas of needed deeper healing in our relationships and relationship to self. Pay attention to conflicts and situations that arise. Words can have muddled meaning in this season. The challenge will be to focus on what you feel more over what is said. Words may hold confusion and illusion. Often with retrogrades, the past may resurface in varying forms.
The energies around this moon will be intense, but will give us clarity to heal relationships, old shame and pain. Its time to graduate- coming out on the other side with greater understanding and clarity. Pay attention to what comes back from the past with Mercury as this may be an area you need to tie up loose ends. Uranus moving into Taurus will no doubt bring about unexpected changes, but it is part of a greater evolution individually and in the collective.
In the wee hours of February 19th we will enter a Full Moon Phase in the zodiac of Virgo. This moon is considered a super moon, because of the earth’s proximity to the earth. The moon will appear large and bright in the sky (assuming its not too cloudy to view).
This moon will not only illuminate the night sky, but also bring into focus areas of our lives that need de-cluttering and reorganization-areas where the heart and mind are scattered. Where our emotions need balance.
With this moon being in the zodiac sign of Virgo, there will be an earth based pragmatism to this moon. Virgos are one of the hardest working signs of the zodiac sign. Virgo is also a thinker and highly critical of themselves and others. You may find yourself doing an inventory of everything in your life- including your thoughts and emotions.
This moon will carry with it a burst of energy and motivation to re-work and organize goals and plans that need fine tuning. You will get the clarity on what you really want and what steps to take in getting here.
Earth energy-money, stability, tangible items will be in review during this moon. Spending problems, needed financial moves and utilizing available resources will be highlighted. The future expansion of resources will be part of this as well. What practical steps are needed to move forward?
The energy around this moon will also bear a sense of compassion and loving feelings. It’s time to let go of expectations and attachment to certain outcomes and how we want life to be. Things will feel as if they have come full circle and greater understanding obtained.
There will be a quiet recognition of problems and what needs to be done to resolve those problems without any thought or conscious deliberation on what direct action is needed, thanks to Mars-ruler of action, aggression, and war. You will just get it done without much forethought. You might also feel rushed to move or speak your mind in an aggressive way.
Neptune will have an aspect to this moon creating a dreamy and whimsical feeling. Its a time to indulge in dreaming big, but also seeing a clear way to achieve your dreams- utilizing Virgo energy. Neptune can create a fog around communication and situations. Things may seem differently than they appear. Be careful if you’re gullable. It will be prudent to listen to your intuition and not move out of a place of fear and anxiety, which can be heightened by Mars. There might be an over-confidence, over-extending, and over-promising with a slight detachment from reality. The sun moving into Pisces will also add to this dreamlike vibe.
There will be an aspect to Mercury, since it is about to go retrograde in early March. The shadow period of Metro retrograde is here- hold ups, important communication and possible miscommunication will start around this time and culminate by the end of this Mercury Retrograde. Also, Mars can add to ruffled feathers. Pay attention to what bubbles up now as it will come full circle by the end of the retrograde period. You’ll see why certain things are at a stalemate.
With an aspect to Pluto, there is a level of death and rebirth to this moon. A feeling of shedding on old skin or completing a spiritual and practical lesson will add to the feeling of coming full circle. You may also feel a deeper sense of connectedness and flow with your world- also playing on Pisces energy.
This will be a powerful moon and emotions will run deep-setting events into motion that could change your life’s direction. This is a very active time in astrology with intense energy. Pay attention to common themes and synchronicity to know what to take in and leave behind during this phase.